Fast Times Now: April 2009

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Camera Lenses and NM

So I have been thinking about getting another lens for my camera. I can't really decide on which one. I really love macro photos and love attempting them with my current lens. I could do so much more with a macro lens. I was also thinking about a wide-angle lens. I've heard that they are really nice to shoot ... well, wide-angle photos. lol. I also was thinking about getting some sort of zoom lens. I was thinking that would be fun. You know what would be nice if there was some sort of zoom/macro lens. I would buy that. I think I am going to get a macro lens since I love close-up shots so much. I don't know if I'll be able to get one before I go to New Mexico but that would be really fun if I could. Canon lenses are really expensive but so worth it.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Irritation

I am just so tired today. I don't know why. I really didn't want to come to work today. It's not even noon and I really just want to be somewhere else right now. What I really want is to not be in Utah. I have half a mind to take a weekend road trip somewhere. Any one want to come? Maybe I'll go crash at Chad and Amber's place (with your permission, of course) for the weekend. Even though they just live in Provo I think it might do me good to be away from my parent's. And they can't tell me I can't take the car because it is now solely mine. As soon as I write them a check it will be mine , at least. Which I could do any time they want. I really want to go see Jon in Mew Mexico. That would take nearly 12 hours of driving. I really don't want to take that long of a road trip right now. I want to spend a few days down there not a few hours. So that trip will have to wait for a bit. (If I go at all it will be in June sometime.) This morning I wanted to be there soaking up the sun and relaxing. But this irritation I feel is just not helping my un-relaxed state of mind right now. I want sun, Doctor Who (David Tennant in any form would be nice), and a few days off so I can drive to New Mexico. lol. The more I think about going and seeing Jon, whom I actually haven't seen in ten years, nor spoken on the phone to, the more I think about that trip the more my resolve not to go breaks down. Yes, Jonathan, you read that right. I didn't know if I wanted to see a complete stranger. Hence the sleeping arrangements ... but I feel that I can trust you. Look at what my non-stop giggling is doing to me. I want to come and get to know you face-to-face. But I really think I should wait. But the weather is so nice down there. It was 86 degrees there yesterday, right. I bet lots of sun and great vistas. I miss New Mexico's great vistas and sunsets. And now that I'm older and know how to handle my camera I have wanted to go photograph some place cool. After seeing Becker's blog about Santa Fe I really wanted to go back and see New Mexico. But that doesn't change the present. Anyone have any ideas on how to get this stupor of thought and feeling to go away? I just want to cuddle up in some one's arms and cry. I really feel like I could cry right now. Life is bogging me down with nothing. I feel like this storm, or lack of storm, is keeping my life from going anywhere. I own a car. Whoopee. It's about the only thing I have going for me. I don't know whether or not I am moving out of my parent's house or not. I need money in order to do that. So from now on nearly all of my paychecks will be going into savings. Maybe by July I'll have found a decent place to move into. That would be nice. But I feel like I have been thinking to far beyond the now. I don't want to live in Utah for the rest of my life therefore I don't want to date anyone here. Besides all the Mormon boys here are way to preppy. I have never liked the culture here verses outside of Utah. If I had a choice I would have stayed in New Mexico or Colorado. I feel like I have been suffocating here. Especially living at my grandparent's house the first year or two. That was crazy. I had two sets of parents. I feel as if I have made little progress toward my own happiness in the three years since I have lived in Utah. I thought things would change but they aren't. I have tried to be happier and change the way I think about my situation but some days, like today, I just feel like crying. I just want to be happy and loved and cuddled. Nothing more then that.

If you read all of that I am sorry. But like I said I'm not having a very good morning.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Happy Earth Day!

Happy Earth Day! Remember to love the planet you walk upon and trust in it's heart. Take care of our dear home. Enjoy the outdoors and life and love everyone the way you want to be loved.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Tulips

I love tulips! They are my favorite flower, next to cala lilies. They are elegant and gorgeous. I love black tulips. They are very hard to find because they are quite rare. Saturday morning I was watching a garden show in which the focal point of the garden was a old stone vase. The gardener had planted tulips around the base and they showed a shot in the springtime when all the flowers were in bloom. I wanted a bouquet of tulips from that point on. So I went to Walmart and looked and they didn't have a very large selection of tulips. I then went to Smith's but they didn't carry any tulips at all. Yesterday, I got to the point of driving down to Albertson's, which is far away from my house, and looked at their tulip selection. I love the selection there. They have a whole bunch of colors and the flowers look healthy. I bought three bouquets of five flowers each. They smell really good and make me smile every time I look at them.

Monday, April 13, 2009

Easter Fun

Brian didn't know what to put on his first eggs so he made a bird's nest. lol. It's pretty ingenious.

Brian and his alien egg. The alien's eyes are really thick glow-in-the-dark crayon. And it really does glow-in-the-dark!

Eric being a dork. lol.

Eric's eggs. Can you tell his an artist?

My batch of eggs. I like my Yoshi egg (the green one with white dots).

But I love my bright red egg. It took forever to make it that red. lol.

Chad can be so egotistical sometimes. lol. Just kidding, Chad. You know I love you.

Monday, April 06, 2009

Idiots and Phones

Some idiot called my phone at 12:45am last night. I guess I was somewhat awake because I woke up and looked at the number. I didn't recognize it so I didn't answer it. The guy left a message. So it beeped at me a few seconds later. I didn't appreciate that at all. I couldn't get back to sleep for thirty minutes, maybe forty. I did not sleep well last night. I tossed and turned a lot. I really ache this morning.

Sunday, April 05, 2009

London Photos ...

Sorry, this is such a long post. I had so many favorite photos I couldn't choose a few. Plus, I did have seven days I had to post. Enjoy!

Friday, March 13 -- Flying to London