I want...

I want to drive to Los Angeles.

I want to buy an apartment near the beach.

I want to work for Warner Brothers Studio.

I want to work on my tan every morning.

I want to buy a dog to keep me company.

I want to have a boyfriend who sings and plays the piano.

I want him to be a Grobanite.

I want to be out of debt.

I want to save more money.

I want a new matress so that I will sleep better at night.

I want to paint my room lavender.

I want to change my hair color so it is lighter.

I want to meet Josh Groban.

I want to be able to see more than one concert,

I want to go to London and see Chess.

I want to drive down the Pacific Coast Highway in a sports car.

I want to stop at every senic pull-off and take pictures.

I want to buy a professional camera that can take panoramic pictures.

I want to travel the world and take photos of anything I find interesting and beautiful.

I want to learn how to play the piano.

I want to meet David Foster.

I want to go to New York City.

I want to see a show on Broadway.

I want to visit Ground Zero.

I want to buy a pair of expensive heels.

I want to buy a copy of the sheetmusic of every song that David Foster has ever written and compile it into a book.

I want to read the scriptures every day.

I want to be able to understand them.

I want to have a well-paying job that I like.

I want my parents to love me.

I want them to stop worring about my future.

I want them to understand me.

I want to love myself.

I want to have a clean mind.

I want to be healthy.

I want to buy a Porsche.

I want to marry a return missionary in the temple.

I want a civil wedding with bride's maids.

I want a fun honeymoon.

I want to get married in the fall.

I want a baby girl.

I want to see the Great Barrier Reef.

I want to go scuba diving and see the marine life.

I want to take a helicopter ride and see the reef from above.

I want to help save it.

I want to go to a Michael Bublé concert.

I want to always be member of Friends of Josh Groban.

I want to be able to spend more time there.

I want a laptop.

I want to be able to access the Internet and store all my photos.

I want to be wanted.

Look at me!

My old glasses ...
My new glasses ...They are TEAL! I love them. My prescription is stronger than my last one. I can see! Finally, after two years. lol. I got a headache from the change but I'm better now that I have worn them for a few hours.

You're the Only Place

You're the Only Place

Seems like our love is on the road to nowhere fast
All my life I thought a love like this would last
But every road can hide a corner we can't see
I had a vision that I woke up by your side
I felt you breathing and our souls were intertwined
But who controls love's destiny -- not me

We had it all
Right in our hands
We had the space to fly and still the place to land

So I'm calling out
I'm calling out you're the only one
Who can save us from what we've done
Don't leave me hanging on
I'm reaching out and praying you'll come back again
It's just darkness I'm living in
And you're the only place my heart has ever been

Maybe I'm young and in the ways of love, naive
Maybe I'm desperate for a reason to believe
There wasn't anyway I thought that we would fall
I've seen perfection in a rainbow in the sky
I've seen a child make the coldest grown man cry
But loving you I thought was greater than them all
We had it all
Just you and me
And now there is a doorway to my heart without a key

So I'm calling out
I'm calling out to the only one
Who can save us from what we've done
Don't leave me hanging on
I'm reaching out and praying you'll come back again
It's just darkness I'm living in
And you're the only place my heart has ever been

Wherever you are right now
Come back and show me how you feel
Because I'm lost without you here

Calling out
I'm calling out to the only one
Who can save us from what we've done
Don't leave me hanging on
I'm reaching out and praying you'll come back again
It's just darkness I'm living in
And you're the only place my heart has ever been

This song always makes me cry. And it doesn't matter if Josh Groban or Nick Lachey is singing. Although, I am partial to Josh's version because of the depth and feeling that is in the background music as well as Josh's voice. The piano part is why I like it so much. It is played with feeling and emotion that only the piano could portray. My favorite line in the whole song is...

I've seen perfection in a rainbow in the sky
I've seen a child make the coldest grown man cry

That is when I start to cry because the piano is excellent! I love it! Enjoy...

my minds mind

I wish I knew what I was doing! I practically dropped out of school, I don't want to work, I don't want to do anything. Dad keeps telling me to get my act together and get a job. Well, he doesn't say it that harshly. I am never happy. I am always thinking in the back of my mind that I am disappointing so many people. I don't know where to turn or where to go. I am lost. Help me! The only time in my day that I am somewhat happy is when I am on FOJG. I feel like I am completely myself there. They know me and we are all there for one reason. We all love Josh's music. Yesterday, we were waiting for Wyatt to post information about the contest and it was a lot of fun. I feel like my family doesn't know who I am. That never take the time to ask me how I am doing. Well, that's not entirely true. Mom and/or Dad sometimes asks how my day went. I say fine and we move on. I just wish I could tell them everything without having to feel ashamed or having them yell at me. I want to tell them that I dropped all my classes but one this semester (and even that one is not going so well). I want to tell them that I don't feel loved here. I want to tell them that I don't like living here, that I need to leave for my own sanity. I want to go to California and start over. I want to go where no one knows who I am and change my life. I feel like if I have a huge change of scenery then I can figure out why life is worth living. Right now I feel like there is no point. I have felt this way before but I got through it. I know that there is beauty and love in the world because I see it and just can't get a hold of any.

Josh Groban ... Awake Live

I am so tired right now. I do believe that the news I received this morning sapped all of my energy away. lol. "What news?" you ask. Well, I went to fojg.com to log-in and check some stuff and I about fell out of my chair. This came up...

Go to the website to watch the video. (You can go to FOJG or JG.com) I logged-in and went straight to the store and bought my copy of Awake Live. Now I just wish it was May 6th already so I can re-live my first Josh Groban concert.